February 4, 2004 - Wednesday
1:24pm - Homestay
Wow, my mail luck has continued. I got another letter from my mom today and one from Alissa with pictures from Thanksgiving in it. Man does Thanksgiving seem like a long time ago! Looking at the heavy sweater makes it feel like another world away. I guess it is. The letter from my mom was really great because she sounds content with my email and in good spirits about this all. I was glad to hear that my email made Barbara Denver feel better as well [her daughter, a childhood friend of mine, was about to head off to Peace Corps Jordan]. It's really hard for me to know I won't be able to talk on the phone with my family for a long time even when I do get the chance. This is by far the longest I've ever gone without talking to my family and I think that's going to be really hard for me. The letters really are like Christmas, but it's really hard to hear about everything going on at home and not miss it.
Janny's grandmother died and she just found out last night. That sort of brought it home for me and made me realize how much it would suck but how possible it is that I might get bad news while I'm here. That would be really hard, especially to make the decision whether or not to go home. At this point, though, I'm feeling good because I think that even if I did go home, I think I would come back.
Training is HARD and I really just can't wait until it's over, but I also know that then there will be a whole new set of problems. Luckily all of the current PCVs say that training is terrible and that if we make it through this, site is a piece of cake. I sure hope so! Because at this point, training is going fine, it's just so tiring and structured that I will be quite happy to be on my own and have some more independence. I'm definitely going to miss seeing everyone everyday though, and the camaraderie. I'm really nervous/excited/anxious to find out our sites at (I think) the end of this week and who I'm going to be near!! That will be very interesting.
So although getting those letters from home today made me miss home a little, I woke up this morning feeling somewhat amazed that some of the things I thought I'd never get used to are already seeming more normal. For instance: I am now able to go to the bathroom in the middle of the night AND with cockroaches in it! That's pretty huge. And I don't turn on the flashlight at every little noise thinking it might be a bug. I still think it might be a bug, but I just don't care as much.
1:24pm - Homestay
Wow, my mail luck has continued. I got another letter from my mom today and one from Alissa with pictures from Thanksgiving in it. Man does Thanksgiving seem like a long time ago! Looking at the heavy sweater makes it feel like another world away. I guess it is. The letter from my mom was really great because she sounds content with my email and in good spirits about this all. I was glad to hear that my email made Barbara Denver feel better as well [her daughter, a childhood friend of mine, was about to head off to Peace Corps Jordan]. It's really hard for me to know I won't be able to talk on the phone with my family for a long time even when I do get the chance. This is by far the longest I've ever gone without talking to my family and I think that's going to be really hard for me. The letters really are like Christmas, but it's really hard to hear about everything going on at home and not miss it.
Janny's grandmother died and she just found out last night. That sort of brought it home for me and made me realize how much it would suck but how possible it is that I might get bad news while I'm here. That would be really hard, especially to make the decision whether or not to go home. At this point, though, I'm feeling good because I think that even if I did go home, I think I would come back.
Training is HARD and I really just can't wait until it's over, but I also know that then there will be a whole new set of problems. Luckily all of the current PCVs say that training is terrible and that if we make it through this, site is a piece of cake. I sure hope so! Because at this point, training is going fine, it's just so tiring and structured that I will be quite happy to be on my own and have some more independence. I'm definitely going to miss seeing everyone everyday though, and the camaraderie. I'm really nervous/excited/anxious to find out our sites at (I think) the end of this week and who I'm going to be near!! That will be very interesting.
So although getting those letters from home today made me miss home a little, I woke up this morning feeling somewhat amazed that some of the things I thought I'd never get used to are already seeming more normal. For instance: I am now able to go to the bathroom in the middle of the night AND with cockroaches in it! That's pretty huge. And I don't turn on the flashlight at every little noise thinking it might be a bug. I still think it might be a bug, but I just don't care as much.
No comments:
Post a Comment