February 16, 2004 - Tuesday
10:00pm - Gberiere
Wow, I really have so little time to write in this and I'm afraid I'm going to regret not having written much when I look back on this. Even right now I am forcing myself to do this because I am so tired and would much rather be sleeping.
I am really burnt out by this schedule. I thought about it, and this is like doing a semester of school but with less homework, more class, and less partying. Ugh, it sucks. Even though I'm scared shitless for site visit, I am so looking forward to no class for over a week and for getting away from my family for a little bit, although I'm sure the attention I get at site will be worse than the attention I get from my family.
I'm really excited about my site! I'm afraid I'm going to be disappointed when I get there because right now I am so excited. I allegedly have electricity six months a year! That would be awesome, although I wonder for what six months! I definitely have a picture in my head of what it will be like and I'm sure I'm way off, so it will be good to get a reality check before being there permanently for two years. I'm really scared about staying by myself, though, especially if there are any animals around in my place! I'm very happy with my neighbor situation, though. I couldn't have asked for anything better.
Meanwhile, back on the homestead, my host father has malaria and he has it bad. I'm actually really worried about him. Ismael took me in to see him tonight (first time I've been in the house) and he was just laying there on the bed not responding to anything. Last night he was talking like a crazy person and it was kind of scary. I don't know what to do, if anything. They all say he hasn't been to the hospital because there isn't enough money, but I feel like there are groups in the village who help out families in situations like this. Just from what they get paid to have me alone I would think would be enough to go to the hospital. What do I know, though. All I know is that it's very scary. Everyone says it's not grave [serious], but I think that's the whole "saving face" thing. It looks pretty grave to me.
Well, on that happy note, I think I'm going to try and not freak out about the mice and sleep instead.
10:00pm - Gberiere
Wow, I really have so little time to write in this and I'm afraid I'm going to regret not having written much when I look back on this. Even right now I am forcing myself to do this because I am so tired and would much rather be sleeping.
I am really burnt out by this schedule. I thought about it, and this is like doing a semester of school but with less homework, more class, and less partying. Ugh, it sucks. Even though I'm scared shitless for site visit, I am so looking forward to no class for over a week and for getting away from my family for a little bit, although I'm sure the attention I get at site will be worse than the attention I get from my family.
I'm really excited about my site! I'm afraid I'm going to be disappointed when I get there because right now I am so excited. I allegedly have electricity six months a year! That would be awesome, although I wonder for what six months! I definitely have a picture in my head of what it will be like and I'm sure I'm way off, so it will be good to get a reality check before being there permanently for two years. I'm really scared about staying by myself, though, especially if there are any animals around in my place! I'm very happy with my neighbor situation, though. I couldn't have asked for anything better.
Meanwhile, back on the homestead, my host father has malaria and he has it bad. I'm actually really worried about him. Ismael took me in to see him tonight (first time I've been in the house) and he was just laying there on the bed not responding to anything. Last night he was talking like a crazy person and it was kind of scary. I don't know what to do, if anything. They all say he hasn't been to the hospital because there isn't enough money, but I feel like there are groups in the village who help out families in situations like this. Just from what they get paid to have me alone I would think would be enough to go to the hospital. What do I know, though. All I know is that it's very scary. Everyone says it's not grave [serious], but I think that's the whole "saving face" thing. It looks pretty grave to me.
Well, on that happy note, I think I'm going to try and not freak out about the mice and sleep instead.
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